Come with me, little neshamala

I guess after blogging a bit, I can now firmly state the purpose of my blog. It's to portray the life of one such as me, who lives a Frum life even though I'm pretty convinced that OJ is off the track.

I am not looking for this to be a debate on skepticism or OJ. I'm not really very good at that. I suffer from CRS (See below). There are other excellent blogs for that, Godol Hador, Ben Avuya, JA, Orthoprax, RecoveringOrthoJew, (just to name the few that instantly come to mind). There are also plenty of blogs for those seeking Chizuk, such as LY, etc.

I'm taking this from the perspective of wanting to share my life with you. Some of my history, how I became dubious about OJ (without trying to convince anyone) and of the difficulties of living in two worlds.

Now and then I may take potshots at things that I feel are wrong with the OJ & Chareidi system. I'll point out the nice things about it too. But that would be no different than other Frum bloggers who have plenty of Emuna.

I must point out that there is a wonderful forum on Yahoo that already has this stated claim. It's the Frum skeptics group. If you're a skeptic, check it out. If you're looking to be Mekarev someone, stay away. I note though, that it does not serve my particular needs and caters more to those that have made a break from Orthodox practice. There are some wonderful conversations and resources in that Forum so I try to participate. My immediate future posts on this blogs will be about issues that I've brought up there already, so bear with me if you've already been thru those.

So please come with me, join me on this journey; I honestly don't know where it will lead. Feel free to comment or not. Feel free to leave if you're bored or offended. Feel free to offer suggestions for discussion.




Oh! I almost forgot. CRS - "Can't Remember S*&%" or us Frummies may say "Can't remember Squat".


It strikes anytime past the age of 40. I first heard of CRS from a co-worker around three years ago. He mentioned CRS to me as a bumper sticker that he'd seen somewhere. Then something strange happened. I felt I was beginning to come down with it. So I mentioned to him that I'm coming down with CRS. He says "CRS, whats that?" He literally had no-recollection of our conversation. I guess It's progressive.

So now that I have CRS, I feel I'm no good at debating, bringing up Pesukim to prove contradictions or citing references of scholarly books. I'll leave the facts and debates to other blogs. (Well maybe we can debate a little).

This is for feelings and experiences.